Rant Away

I have been meaning to start a blog for some time now, but I have always talked myself out of it.

Why?

Well, it's the fear of putting myself out there. I have always been one to shy away from things that can gravitate attention towards me. I do not really like attention. Maybe I'm more open to it now because I am tired of waiting on the sidelines and letting life past me by. I want to be a part of life. I want to make my own decisions and of course, you cannot just skate on by without doing something. So, now I am doing something. I'm doing a lot of somethings, but let's not get into that right now.

So, yes, I have created a blog. I do have a tumblr and I often use that to rant about shows and movies and life and what not. That was a lot of "and", terrible sentence structure. Anyway, I use tumblr frequently, but I guess now I have this.

Perhaps, this first post should be a little "About Me". Details about me and what not.

All right. What to say though about me? I could never really do those kind of things. I always felt weird because the spotlight was on me so I freeze up and say whatever things comes to mind then regret it later.

Okay, I have it now.

I am of age. 19 if you want to be more specific. I live in the tiny island of Guam. I am about 5'2" or 5'3", I am not really sure which one, but I am about there. I have lived in California when I was 10 years old and moved back to Guam when I was 13 years old. I call 12 - 17 dark times for me even though there were some really good moments in those few years. I didn't really enjoy high school until my junior year, but even though, going to an all girl school is not really a highlight. More drama then necessary. Now, being 19, I've learned to enjoy life and not take it too seriously. I am what you call a hopeless romantic. I have liked guys, but I never dated anyone. I am a virgin in dating, kissing, and sex. Honestly, I don't really mind it. I have learned to be on my own and enjoy my relationships with other people. I'm holding out though for that one guy to surprise me. If he's not in Guam, then hopefully he'll be in the states. I love to write. I am a writer and I would love to make a career out of it. I am very critical about my writing, but everyone says it is good, I guess I need to get reviews from real writers so I can really improve. Of course, everyone is entitled to their opinions and I appreciate people complementing me on my work, but I need a professional's opinion to make myself feel better. After all, if I want to become a scriptwriter for a television show, it has to be good, real good. I love television shows, movies, and music. I am a geek when it comes to pop culture trivia. I even love connecting actors/actresses to each other, it's like a game to me and I love it so much.

I guess that is about it. I'm not quite certain where this will go or if I'll continue it because I suck at committing to things like this. I hardly join clubs because I hate meetings and I can't commit to that. Anyway, there will just be random posts every so often.

Stay gold,

~ Mariah